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BEFORE I KNEW YOUR NAME

 I don’t know when it began... Maybe it was while I was working, lost in small responsibilities, arranging things, setting them in place, thinking without knowing I was thinking. And suddenly, time loosened its grip on me. I was not here anymore. I was somewhere softer. Somewhere that smelled like old houses in the afternoon, like a different kind of warmth drifting from someone else’s kitchen, like childhood hiding in corners. A line echoed somewhere inside me — “I remember when I first noticed that you liked me back.” It did not feel like a song. It felt like a memory I had forgotten to keep. The words moved slowly through me and I slipped quietly into the past. I was small again. Walking through school corridors. Believing in simple friendships. Waiting to meet someone in class as if I had always known someone would be there for me. And in that strange overlap of time, the friend I was about to meet had your face . It felt natural. Not dramatic. Not new. Just familiar. As if my ...
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Why do I miss You?

  My longing for someone dear, this sadness, I cannot bear... My heart, it worries and fears! Why do I miss you? When you're so near? I can close my eyes and clearly see,  all that I have and will never be.

Why do I love you so?

  Why do I love you so? Despite feeling so hurt in your love... Is it really worth the cost of pain? To my heart, and the way I feel drained? My heart's stuck in the abyss,  Yet I'm still loving what I miss... Why must I crave for your loving touch?  When mere asking of it is said to be too much!!! Why do I love you so? When I get so hurt in your love? There's no solace that I can feel,  As I'm falling into a quicksand of your love, not knowing when I'll heal...

Pairs of hearts who meet just once...

Some spent their life together, oh so brief, and no chance of love they ever did receive. But there are pairs of hearts who meet just once,  a tender kiss and feels as if no time had passed since. One look, one touch, and it's already done, a deep connection that will never be undone. Love that's pure and real, no need to pretend, no words to say,  they know each others heart and need. And when the time for them to part's arrived, no distance great enough, emotions still thrive. For with such an emotion so strong and divine,  nothing could ever tear them from its binds.

LOVE YOURSELF

  A love I always dreamed of, Seemed so far out of reach, Until I saw it in someone else, And felt my heart finally breach. Why God do I deserve this, To only admire from afar, To watch someone else enjoy it, While I sit and bear the scars. Am I not worthy of love, Is my heart too broken to mend, Or am I just not meant to find, A love that will never end. I long for a love that's true, A love that will cherish and adore, But it seems like a distant wish, One that I'll never explore. In the silence of my tears, I ask the heavens above, Why does the love I always wanted, Be found in someone else's love. But deep down in my heart, I know the answer lies, In learning to love myself, And seeing my own beauty in disguise. For when I find that love within, And embrace it with open arms, I know that's when I'll be ready, To receive a love that's full of charms. So I'll wait and I'll keep hoping, For a love that's meant for me, And in the darkness of my doubt...

YOU

I met someone in my dreams once. I knew I fell in love with him  and he was never ever going to fall for me.  Cut to reality ... I saw the same man standing at a distance, he held love and care,  unfortunately some pain too... I just saw him and I already knew I was in love with him, even before I met him. He crept on me slowly and steadily... noticing and ignoring,  I came close, realising his love took me over... I don't want to be sad anymore,  but without him, sadness engulfs me. He teaches me to close my eyes and  find him next to me. only if he knew, I never want him with my eyes closed, I want him in my arms instead with my eyes wide open...